One of my students recently emailed me a poem she wrote for me. She said she wanted to wait until after the semester was over so that I, and her classmates, wouldn't think that she was trying to brown nose me into giving her a better grade. And, after reading it, I have to admit, it may have worked ;) Except that she is a great student and writer who wouldn't need to suck up to get a good grad - Her work earns the A for her. I wanted to share this sweet poem she wrote for me. I bet she didn't even know that she sent it to me on my birthday :)
When you left
by Khira Rey
Ah, the table is where it should be
But then I’m looking at what I couldn’t see
The board doesn’t seem blocked by her
And the air doesn’t strive to straight her hair
But the room, although no one is there
Although untouched and left with care
Is not empty for her laugh remains
The words of joys and the words of pains
Strangled at first by the thought of leaving
Scared that without her no one is listening
Soon I realized there is nothing to fear
Because although I cannot see her near
I’m glad she’s out there inspiring the rest
It would be selfish to keep someone "the best"
Because I’d love others to go happy and crazy
I’d love them to be inspired by our Ma’am Tracy.
Recently a good friend of mine, Erica, was diagnosed with breast cancer and began the lengthy treatment process. In an attempt to understand what she may be going through, I wrote a poem for her. I wrote it from her perspective, in an attempt at imagining what she may be going through right now - a roller coaster of emotions that she can try to control, but sometimes has a hard time keeping in check. A
lot of the lines I took from actual facebook posts that she made or
words she used in conversations with me. And I also didn't know all the
specifics of the treatment plan when I wrote it, so it may not be totally accurate. I also tried to inject humor, not to trivialize her experience, but because I've noticed she's been using humor and sarcasm a lot in her messages to me. I can't begin to really feel what she's going through, but I
wanted to try.
Erica is an amazingly strong woman and I admire the way she's facing this with grace and courage. I'm confident that if anyone can beat breast cancer, Erica will be the one.
For Erica (And Her Boobies)
There's a lump in my breast
The doctor told me it was a 3
On a scale of 1 to 6
1 being definitely not cancer
6 definitely cancer
They gave me a 3
Probably not cancer
Probably not cancer?!
I need a second opinion
More tests
This doctor tells me
You should prepare yourself for cancer
How the hell do I prepare myself for cancer?
The results take 6 days
6 days to prepare for cancer
Waiting
I'm strong
Waiting
I'll get through this
Waiting
This isn't happening to me
Results...
I have cancer
Shit
Invasive Ductal Carcinoma
That sounds bad
I have cancer
Now what?
Chemo
At least it's Halloween season
I can wear fun wigs
Maybe I'll go blond
Surgery
Boobs are overrated anyway
Think of the money I'll save on bras
Radiation
I heard the White House scans visitors for radiation risks
Maybe I'll be considered a threat to national security
5 years of hormone therapy
5 years
There goes the rest of my 30s
No
I can't think that way
I'm strong
I'll get through this
Dammit
Now I have to tell everyone else
No use trying to hide it
It'll be pretty obvious once I start treatment
I'm going to get this announcement over with
Facebook post:
I have breast cancer
I'll start treatment next week
I'm in good spirits
I feel super confident that I'll beat this
Smiley face
There
I've said it
Though I still don't believe it myself
I have cancer
It's scary
It's hard to wrap my brain around it
I don't feel sick
But once I start chemo...
No
Stay positive
I'm strong
It hasn't spread to my bones
Or my brain
I'll get through this
I'm in fighting mode
And feeling super positive
All of my doctors believe they can cure me
I'm staying positive
With the occasional fits of tears
I'm not ready to cry in public
People already feel uncomfortable around me
Now that they know
I have cancer
I don't want to magnify it by bursting into tears
One minute I'm fine
Having a normal conversation
Then it sneaks up on me
And I'm sobbing
Of course, I don't stop talking
Just call me the awkward cancer girl
Smiley face
I'm strong
I'll get through this
I'm in good spirits
I'm confident I'll beat this
I don't even feel sick
It's strange to think
In order to heal me
They have to make me sick
Today I start chemo
Today it becomes real
I have cancer
But it will NOT beat me
That's what everyone says
I AM strong
I WILL get through this
Smiley face
Chemo
Surgery
Radiation
Cancer
Bring
It
On
Last month I arranged for members of our Creative Writing class to go into the city for a poetry open mic night. We had about 20 students join us, and 5 or 6 of them were brave enough to share their poetry with the overflowing crowd at Baguio City's Mt. Cloud Bookshop. For most of the students, it was their first time at this pleasant and peaceful book shop, and for all of them, the "Third Monday from the Sun" was their first appearance at an open mic night.
They were nervous, and a bit intimidated by the crowd, largely populated by poets. But the cheerful and bubbly host of the night made everyone feel at home, instructing all of us poets to introduce ourselves, and encouraging the crowd to then respond.
Me: Hi, I'm Tracy
Crowd, in unison: Hi Tracy!
Throughout the show, most of our students remained in the balcony, only coming down if their name was called from the sign up sheet.
She had purposely put her name lower down on the list so she wouldn't be called first. But the host chose the names randomly, causing her to be teary-eyed and quivering as she kicked off the night.But she did an awesome job!
Some of the poems were more warm and cheerful. Others got a bit angsty.
Even the students who did not share their poetry seemed to enjoy the event, and claimed they'd definitely go back again - and maybe even read their own work next time. I was inspired, not only by their courage to share their poems, but because some of them were original poems that they did not write for our class. That means they're writing poetry, even when it's not assigned! Woohoo! Next week there'll be another open mic night, so I hope they're still writing. I guess that means I should get writing too...
Note: I don't have copies of the poems they shared that night, but one student emailed me a poem recently, so I thought I'd share it here. Enjoy!
After such a successful round of inspirational poems, I wanted to see if the students could express their anger and frustrations as well as their admiration and love. Their prompt was to follow the same instructions from Crystal's inspirational poem workshop but to write about someone or something that angers them the most. We wanted to feel their anger, be angry with them.
Ma'am Cynthia and I were blown away. We heard hilarious poems that made us all laugh together, vengeful poems that made me say things like, "Oh....SNAP!" and powerful poems that made us cry with empathy. I was so grateful to hear these expressions and I hope that you will appreciate these angry poems. I included mine again, so can see a little bit into the thing that frustrates me most about my life here.
A few of these are better expressed as a performance (particularly mine, since it requires me making sound effects), but hopefully you can feel the frustration through reading them. Fortunately, others outside our classroom will get the chance to hear some of them because I'm taking a group of 30 students from this class to a poetry open mic night in Baguio City next week. But for now, you can enjoy them here...
Claire B. Sacpa
“Summer, don’t touch that, okay?
Don’t touch that, I saw you
Beagle, don’t eat that, no!
What? Oh c’mon, my eardrums almost burst, yet — haayyy…
Clouds, that’s dirty you know.”
Argh! This is such an annoyance!
And worst is when it’s continuously barking but,
She will just say “Why Boda, what’s your problem?”
Anyway, it’s the dogs, four dogs;
Most of all, the very irresponsible owner.
I am residing at my late grandparents’ house.
She is our boarder; landlady is my aunt, living nearby.
Every time I go home, stressed, from school
I can’t avoid passing by these colorful —
Black, brown, yellow, whatever color — the dog’s poop.
Step, ooppss.. poop, step, step.. poop again, step, step, step, another poop!
A mixture of odorous dogs, not taking a bath for like a year, and its poops
What I can’t take is, at home, when I arrive
Still, dogs’ poop are scattered outside
And when I enter the house… kuuhhh…. the smell!
It’s indescribable, makes me vomit
I just make my nose adapt to it.
At night while studying, they’re also barking
Then she will say, “Keep quiet, I kill you”
Of course they’re still barking;
I’m tired of waiting, tired of waiting for her to kill those dogs,
“I said keep quiet, I kill you.”
Nothing happens.
How could she live with that environment?
She bought dogs and speaks to it in English;
She doesn’t know how to train them.
My eyes, nose, and ears are now polluted
Because of her irresponsibility
I’m so exasperated!
How I wish I’m the boss, so I can say
“Go, leave, take your dogs with you and never show your face here again!
You’re the most disgusting person, I’ve ever known…”
Oh no! I can’t do that.
Oh, yes I can!
In my dreams…
BY: JELYN CORTEZ
Waiting seems forever
It is good it is worth waiting
But frustrating and irritating
If you waited for nothing
It’s been decade when he’s gone
A decade of waiting and hoping
But a decade of frustration
And years full of hurt
Why is life so unfair?
He’s a good man, but is he taken there
In a way like a nightmare
And leave us all in suffer
In that unfortunate night
He was hit without having a chance to fight
He was found when the morning light
Half dead and half alive,
a term that describe it right
Hit by metal tubes
And punched by group of men
Drop it from the second floor like a sack
Who would have survive in such
Even so called friend is there
The only witness, his very own friend
Where is he? He’s nowhere
Silenced by fear
And blinded with money
And the criminals live freely
Damn this people!
Damn justice!
Why did this people ever live?
Why did these things ever exist,
if they don’t serve their purpose,
and give others hope for nothing.
Give promises that others expect
But fulfill nothing.
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EM
GEE!
These stairs!
As you climb them, the day's frustrations fell
Right off my shoulders
One
At
A
Time
Your cheerful greeting
Between caught breaths
Drowned the sound of the relentless rain
Your bright smile illuminated the dim hallway
As we scurried off to the anxiously awaiting class
Inspired
Challenged
Heard
Understood
Entertained
Even if 90 minutes lang
They can feel the force of your friendship
That I've been fortunate to bask in
And soon I won't be able to ignore the rain anymore
It will still be here, but you won't
Without you, who will do the job of the sun?
OH
EM
GEE!
GIRL!
I wish you didn't have to leave me!
SHOOT!
I had another late entry from a student. This student is excellent at performing her poetry and making her audience feel the emotion. I wish you could've seen this performed, but I hope you'll enjoy reading it none the less...
Admiration Poem
In Dedication to “You”
Heads down
My fingers poking the bubble gum
stuck under my armchair
I suddenly smell something quite familiar
I stood up and froze
“Oh my gosh he’s coming!”
I pretended to be busy as he entered the room
My heart goes “Bodoom! Baddom!” to “Boom”
It’s ready to explode at his presence
I sat down put my hands on my chin
And I go “ Haaaaaa….”
Then he started “Good morning class!”
Those were the only words that I remember
Because the rest of the lecture
I was imaging things…
Him and me, running in the beach
Holding hands
Both of us looking at each other
And finally…
“Miss Padeo!” I jumped up!
And all of them were starin’ at me
I felt a hot stingy sensation
Filling in my face, my ears, my cheeks, eyes
nose, chest, even in my feet!
“Please erase the board” then he fixed his things
And walked away